you.

nostalgia sets in...

i miss the way we used to be. i miss the times when we would sit side by side, holding hands because that's what we both needed. i miss when you were always there. i miss the rides home. i miss your smile. i miss you. now you're just another stranger, just another person i've hurt over time. its a wonder you ever wanted anything to do with me after all the hurt i caused you. all i need is just a "hello" or something to stop the hurt. you were the person i could count on the most. now you're just a memory.

i hate the way i treated you. like something i could just throw away when i was done, then pick back up when i needed a shoulder to cry on. you became my best friend, but i know i was never yours. i was hardly a friend at all. if i could go back and fix all the mistakes i've made in my life, the one i made with you would be the first one i'd repair. i'd grown so used to you coming back. now it hurts that you've finally realized that there are better.

i wish i would have loved you the way you wanted me to. things could have been so different. who knows, i could have been happy. i never want you to feel like you weren't enough, because you were. you still are. you're more than enough. you're a better person than i am. you stick around for the long run. i just wish i could have loved you.